A rare understanding of the male hormonic cycle

Amsterdam,

Tooth ache to the extreme, days of eating with dental pain, not the easiest way of keeping myself busy with my artwork, my reading and linguistic self endicted study programs in these days of (supposedly) rest and tranquility though problemic misfortune is a part of my life in times of non-employment...

Trying hard to create order in a house of disorder, trying hard to create unchaos in a existence full of chaos, hard enough to understand the very reasons behind the will to keep on going were the question of what it is all about is an enigma to begin with...

Thailand is getting real close now, the little attractions for a confirmed male bachelor life style at a distance of twelve hours comfortable flying time a simple understanding to the endurement of my constant pains and tribulations here in good old Mokum - or so one might think...a tooth extraction tomorrow and the horror feelings that come with it (after all who out there likes a little social visit to the city's most feared, yes, the dentist) just a little bit easier to put up with knowing one hundert percent fully well it is Pas of what I want to plaque me the next two months in the Land Of Smiles...

Wanna feel healthy to the max, be able to have great meals with ladies of the infamous Pattaya nightlife, Cafe Latte in some nice beachside bar in the afternoon with Farang friends or Hot Momma aquiatances, a few cold Chang beer late at night at the former so-called Dutch bench, conveniently located opposite the Seven/Eleven...

Lets get that tooth out tomorrow and do more some self understanding here...after all self understanding is rare in the human species and comprehending the male understanding of the male hormonic cycle probably even worse...

As for those that follow these chaotic self analysing psycho babble stories, I hope seriously you can make sense out ot them!!!